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Passatjes (the title refers to the German title of Benjamin’s unfinished masterpiece, The Arcades Project) is situated on a hill above the bay, next to the cemetery where Benjamin’s remains rested for five years before the local man who was covering the rent on the crypt stopped paying, and Benjamin was removed and reinterred in a common grave.





Passatjes works on many levels, literally and metaphorically. I first approached it, accidentally, from below (I missed the signs that point tourists in the right direction), where it looks like a chute, part of a mine or a smelter, poised to dump rock or molten metal onto the road (and onto me). The rusty steel of which it’s constructed (Core-10, I think, although it’s not quite rusty enough for that) adds to the impression. I turned toward the bay and looked across at the buildings and the green and rocky hills on the opposite side. My perspective was open, unchanneled, I could look wherever I liked.


Then I walked back through the village, climbed the stairs, and followed the road to the memorial. There it was: a line of rusted steel plates across the parking lot; a darker patch of stone in the wall on the other side, facing the monument; and the steel tunnel and stairs that lead down the cliff, the bottom closed off by a sheet of plate glass. The description on the official website says there’s an olive tree, too, but I didn’t notice it, or at least I wasn’t sure which tree it is meant.



The form imitates the neighbouring cemetery, which is also built around stairs on the hillside, but where it is colourful and light and open, Passatjes is dark, somber, and enclosed. As visitors descend, their feet create deep, echoing hollow thuds; when the roof of the tunnel opens to the sky, turning the work into a steel trench, I heard the ghostly echoes of the voices of people above in the parking lot, which were somehow caught between the rusty walls. It’s chilly. The glass reflects the people on the stairs, dimly, while allowing us to see the relative and unreachable freedom of the bay below. The stairs continue past the glass; if it weren’t there, we could continue to descend until we fell to our deaths.




The text etched into the glass is ghostly, too, its words hard to make out against the light streaming through from outside, even on this cloudy day. The text etched into the glass at the bottom of the memorial’s stairs alludes to Benjamin’s second burial. It’s a quotation from Thesis 7 of Benjamin’s “Theses on the Philosophy of History,” an essay published not long after his death. (He was carrying a heavy manuscript in his suitcase, one he said was more valuable than his own life, but it went missing after his death and has never been found. The quotation is in four languages: Spanish, Catalan, French, and English. Notably, deliberately, not German, the language Benjamin spoke, the language of the country of his birth. In English, it reads,
It is more difficult to honour the memory of the anonymous than the renowned. Historical construction is devoted to the memory of the anonymous.
Perhaps he wouldn’t have minded being placed among those who couldn’t afford a more noteworthy burial: the poor, refugees. Perhaps that’s a silly romantic notion.
I sat down at the bottom and thought about all the anonymous dead over the millennia, and the way that in a few years or short decades all of us will join Benjamin among them. It was all deeply moving.


Portbou is a cute little tourist village. Maybe Passatjes encourages more visitors; it’s hard to say. I did find a short pilgrimage of sorts, from the train station to the site of the Hotel Francia and the police station, and then the memorial. If I ever return to Barcelona, I’ll come to see Passatjes again.
Here’s something new: a walk paired with a book. I’ve never done this before.
La Familia Sagrada: does that count as a walk? Does it matter? I walked there; I walked around while I was there, listening to the audio guide; I’ll be walking back. Good enough for me.
What an incredible cathedral; what a testament to faith and human creativity and the sublime and the beautiful.
Here’s an odd coincidence: while in line for the Passion Tower, a woman behind me looked familiar. Where are you from? we asked each other. Susan lives in Saskatoon; we met at my book launch there in January.
I would’ve stayed longer, but I slept in (jet lag, I guess) and had trouble getting organized, and so I missed breakfast. By two in the afternoon, my stomach was making those noises and I had a headache. Time to find lunch.
























Then, lunch: inexpensive and delicious—grilled vegetables, local garlic sausage, Greek yogurt with honey. And Gillian Jerome’s book, Nevertheless: Walking Poems.

I’ve been looking for things I might be able to teach in a course about walking and writing next winter, and before I left for Spain, I threw this book into my bag. I enjoyed it, particularly the way Jerome talks back to solitary, male walkers (Rilke, Rousseau) and instead sees walking as a way to connect with others. Not just the people she’s walking with: also passersby, people sitting or lying down whom she sees, people she remembers. She also realizes her links to the places where she’s walking—particularly their histories, but also their futures as the Anthropocene thunders onward. Jerome is a gardener, too; I included the photo I took of the lavender outside Sagrada Família because that’s one of the flowers she grows in her Vancouver yard. Caring for plants is another way to recognize our connections to the places where we live. So too, I just realized, is writing about them.
I don’t think Jerome would mind if I shared this lovely sonnet, “Poem for Autumn,” which I’m too lazy to type out, and since AI bots visit this blog daily, scraping text to feed themselves, it’s probably better to present it this way:

Lunch is finished. Time to pay up and return to my wandering.

Long walks can be magical, if you have the time and ability to go on one, and this article describes 13 possibilities. Some I knew about; some I’ve completed; some are completely new to me. One thought: I can’t imagine paying for a guided tour of the Camino de Santiago. That’s not necessary, in my experience, and the suggestion that it is makes me wonder if some of the advice here makes sense. You be the judge.
This morning, we joined a group of people for a walk around Hidden Valley organized by Nature Regina. We were guided by naturalist Dale Hjertaas. I hadn’t been there for a while, and new marked trails have been cut through the thickets of saskatoons and chokecherries. So many wildflowers are in bloom, and I learned so much about insects and birds and, not surprisingly, plants. We even saw a spotted twohee, which I’ve heard singing (or do Merlin has told me), but had never seen. Nature Regina has more events coming up; I’m going to make a point of participating.























